I’m thankful for any/every opportunity to do something I love.
Creatively, it’s been a tough year. I had some rejection that stung pretty deep. I also had gigs that I had lined up fall through.
I took a season away from singing at church for several reasons: Sunday’s are hard, it takes time away from my kids, I had inflamed vocal chords for several months & if I’m being honest- I’m trying to find my place & needed to do some soul searching.
I went to practice last night after having coughed all day. I sounded horrible. I’m a little embarrassed but hey – I’ve got a cold. I did my best. But I had a great time.
Part of my problem is that I’m interested & feel passionate about/called to a lot of things. Yet I’ve always searched for that ONE thing. That thing that sticks out like a sore thumb & can’t be ignored or denied. I wish I could point to that something and say “Yep! That’s it! I’m an underwater basket weaver!”, or whatever. A jack of all trades & master of none. It’s discouraging & makes me heartsick sometimes.
Anyway…None of that is going to get sorted out today. So, I’m just going to pop a cough drop, pick up a mic & sing with my whole heart & be thankful for it.
Don’t overthink it. Just be grateful.